This is one crazy ride.

Seems like I spend most of my time in speculation regarding my current circumstances.  If there were any other direction in which to channel my focus I would certainly do so.  I mean, no one likes to be bombarded by the kicks, knocks, and out-right punches life sometimes dishes out, and when these are broken by even an occasional time-out then... well, rest and recovery is the only real way to make withstanding the worst possible.  Not to say we're destined to buckle under the onslaught, but it certainly makes it easier to get back up when you have the strength and clarity to do just that.

I'm a bit lacking on the strength and clarity thing these days.

Introspection is the name of the game these days, and I've gotten pretty damn good at being able to look at myself and ask the right questions.  The answers to my questions, however, are a bit harder to find as the questions themselves seem to shift and change and grow more numerous by the day.  Still, looking, asking, and listening for those important responses from 'self' remain the most important part of healing; for me, this is absolutely essential.

Yeah, it's one of those days where I've yet to determine the course of my life.

I'm freaking lost (no surprise there).